Time to fly

Newly married, a nice husband, new place and a beautiful house awaiting with all the time in the world to enjoy, a scenario I thought any normal person would find exciting. Strange enough, I feel lost. I am not there yet but I feel like an alien about to enter a wonderland. I am not sure if I could ever belong to that place but I feel removed from my world. Sooner ot later, I knew the time would come when I have to be part of someone else's world, but any amount of preparation isn't enough to face the moment. You built your own world, bit by bit, over the years and all you could take along are two tangible enclosed boxes weighing 40 kilos in total. It makes you feel uneasy and wierd though it should hardly matter in this world of technology where everything is just a click away!

Does it sound familiar to you?

Now, I am married!

Yes, it is a strange feeling. Is it the feeling of oneness or the idea of belonging to someone or the thought that there is someone always with you, I am not sure. Not that you never had people to care for you before, your family has always been there, not that you have lived alone, friends always made your day, not that there was a particular gap in your life waiting to be filled by this person, but when he comes in, your whole world changes.It begins to revolve around this one person and then you wonder like I am now doing, "Isn't it strange?"

Random

I want my epithet read: "A fighter to the core"

I think I was more matured in my teens than in my twenties

It is not so much about success and failure as much it is about what you really want to do

Express but never explain

Isn't it funny that time travels at different speeds...esp. slow in weekdays n very fast during weekends

Silly me!

I thought our life is in our control
Poor me, little did I know that
All I own is my 'shameless' smile
As my colleagues rightly put it!

Do you want me to be numb?

You know nothin is gonna stay
You know life will move on
Yet you feel the pain
Yet you feel the happiness

You meet people
You part with them
Its so natural
With so many thngs around

You know nothin is gonna stay
You know life will move on
Yet you feel the pain
Yet you feel the happiness

The truth is so obvious
So you want me to be numb?
Never let you know the pain
And remain forever mum

You know nothin is gonna stay
You know life will move on
Yet you feel the pain
Yet you feel the happiness

My Mad Logic

Bhagwan ne aisa plan banaya ki
Har kisi ke life mein ek tragedy ho
Koi bahut pyari si cheez
Milte milte hi miss ho jaye
Aur woh usi ki chahat mein mar jaaye
Marke woh bhoot ban jaaye
Bhoot ban ke logon ko pareshan kare
Phir log bhagwan ko yaad kare
Aur Bhagwan hamesha jeete rahe

My First Song...

If you don't find time
When I want
And keep me waiting
While you play

I will still talk
When you want
And sing
The song you like

I will play with you
Anytime
And be there
All the time

But...
You will never be
the same for me again
I will never be
the same ol' girl u know!

Thought of the day!

"There is a beauty in randomness that one can't define, probably the reason why the nature can't be simulated"

Positive side of life...

I have heard some people say

‘Life is not a beautiful song

As one might think’

But even if there is one person

Who thinks otherwise

I would like to believe him

Coz if I have a choice

I would take the positive side of life

As there is eternal hope in it

Though with brief disappointments

Lots of energy and drive

Though you may actually never reach

But for one who believes in the journey

More than the destination like I do

This seems to suit the best!

The first quarter of my life!

Agreed, I may not make it to the final quarter but the first one was as it should be. Youthful, energetic, enthusiastic, full of ambitions, dreams, colours! Most of it went smooth with occasional hiccups to give it a reality touch. The first ten years, I was busy packing mud into chocolate wrappers, pushing empty trucks, making sand houses, dancing in the fog of mosquito fogging machine taking it for clouds and running after grasshoppers and butterflies. Summers were even busier and lovelier with 8 cousins in our granny’s house playing everything under the sun never with any other intention except having fun. The next 10 years I spent learning, competing, making ambitious plans for future, altering them, taking U-turn and making completely new plans and putting in lots of efforts in preparing myself for them. The next 5 years, though, I was in self-discovery mode. I began to explore myself, uncover my hidden talents, and ignite my latent passions, travelled as much as I can, did a bit of adventure, met people, and made friends. Perfect! But, all this while, I never cared about anything, was afraid of nothing, never saw myself in the mirror for more than a couple of seconds nor took time to eat the essential things or learn the necessary skills to live. But, as I entered into the second quarter of my life, it seems as if life switched gears suddenly, for the good I guess. It’s quite different now to see myself making conscious effort to eat healthy, take care of my skin, my hair and learn a bit of cooking and cleaning. Though people at home have been stressing the importance of these things since ages, my otherwise sharp brain could grasp this only after I finished the first quarter of my life. Spending time on this stuff was unthinkable for me a couple of years ago, but now I completely believe it is essential! This is what people probably call ‘maturing with age!’ I have no clue, do you?